I Just Wanna Free Fall For Awhile

why do i miss you. i shouldnt. you dont deserve it. i deserve better. but i miss you. i hear the vibration and i hope it is you. something happens and your the only one i want to tell. why did it end? what happened that we couldnt fix it, that you couldnt talk to me. i see all of these couples working things out through terrible situation but no you threw it all away. you gave me no option, no choice, no say at all. you took the power from me and now i have to deal with the pain. i feel so alone and all i want to do is text you.. talk to you but i cant. i want that closure but i fear it at the same time because then its really over and i already miss you. i looked to you to make me smile and make me feel better always but now i have no one so the smile never comes and i just feel bad. why do i miss you.. i dont want to.. make it stop.. take it all back.

this is when it hurts the most… late at night when im all alone and just thinking. thinking about you and us and everything that we had. when im wondering what your doing and waiting for the text that is never going to come. but then i remember i dont want that text. i dont want to hear from you because i need to move on. i need to remember what you did and who you really are because its not who i thought you were. the feelings will never go away but they will fade.. or thats what im told and everyday ill feel a little bit better and it will get a little bit easier. but for now it just hurts, i go from heart broken to pissed beyond belief to feeling nothing at all and i dont know whats worse. its not fair and i really hate you and i will get over you and when i do youll be sorry but then itll be too late cause ill be gone so i hope your happy with your choice cause its the last one im letting you make in my life. i dont need you and im better off with out you so thank you for showing me what the worst relationship is cause it will only get better from here. so watch out cause i am who i am and im going to show you what your missing. so this is me trying to let you go. all that is left to say is g o o d b y e.